LINKIN PARK: MEIA DÚZIA DE PORQUÊS...

Faleceu Chester Bennington, um dos vocalistas dos Linkin Park, aparentemente devido a suicídio por enforcamento. Esta não é uma dissertação sobre a morte ou sobre o desespero. Vamos deixar isso para a Psicologia e para a Filosofia, que certamente têm muito a dizer acerca da fama, do desespero e de outros assuntos afins. Era verdade que ele tinha sérios problemas de álcool e drogas, mas os seus motivos serão sempre privados e opacos para nós.

Aqui interessa-nos a música e porque é que os Linking Park são uma das mais influentes bandas para uma geração que, agora, tem um mártir, como outras tiveram o Jim Morrison e a Janis Joplin, tiveram o Ian Curtis ou o Kurt Cobain.

Os Linkin Park estão numa gaveta a que os mais metódicos chamam de "nu metal", mas a verdade é que estão num limbo que os fazia serem escutados tanto pelos amantes da pop - que se surpreendiam por gostarem dum rock mais esgalhado -, como pelos amantes do metal - que os ouviam às escondidas e escondiam a sua preferência do resto do grupo de amigos, sem se aperceberem que, todos os outros, também os ouviam em segredo.

Eu ouvi Linkin Park exaustivamente e foi uma das minhas bandas preferidas lá pelos idos anos 90. Sem vergonha e sem arrependimento. Consumi músicas da banda como um maníaco-obcessivo, com uma intensidade como se não fosse haver amanhã. "Hybrid Theory", "Meteora" ou "Minutes To Midnight" (apenas como exemplo) fazem parte da minha existência, como os meus pulmões, o meu fígado ou o meu coração.

Não vou fazer considerações acerca de cada música. Todas elas estão coladas à minha pele como tatuagens. É uma pequena coleção de 6, que podiam ser outras ou podiam ser mais...

In The End (Hybrid Theory, 2000)

It starts with
One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme to explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
I wasted it all
just to watch you go
I kept everything inside
And even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a
memory of a time when

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme to remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so [far]
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me [in the end]
I kept everything inside
And even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a
memory of a time when

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
for all this
There's only one thing you should know

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
for all this
There's only one thing you should know

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

 Castle Of Glass (Living Things, 2012)

 Take me down to the river bend
Take me down to the fighting end
Wash the poison from off my skin
Then show me how to be whole again

Fly me up on a silver wing
Past the black, where the sirens sing
Warm me up in the nova's glow
And drop me down to the dream below

'Cause I'm only a crack
In this castle of glass
Hardly anything there for you to see
For you to see

Bring me home in a blinding dream
Through the secrets that I have seen
Wash the sorrow from off my skin
And show me how to be whole again

'Cause I'm only a crack
In this castle of glass
Hardly anything there for you to see
For you to see

'Cause I'm only a crack
In this castle of glass
Hardly anything else
I need to be

'Cause I'm only a crack
In this castle of glass
Hardly anything there for you to see
For you to see

Numb (Meteora, 2003)

 

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure
Of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly
Afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I'm Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)

 

Heavy feat. Kiiara (One More Light, 2017)

 

 I don't like my mind right now

Stacking up problems that are so unnecessary
Wish that I could slow things down
I wanna let go but there's comfort in the panic
And I drive myself crazy
Thinking everything's about me
Yeah I drive myself crazy
Cause I can't escape the gravity

I'm holding on
Why is everything so heavy
Holding on
So much more than I can carry
I keep dragging around what's bringing me down
If I just let go, I'd be set free
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy

You say that I'm paranoid
But I'm pretty sure the world is out to get me
It's not like I make the choice
To let my mind stay so fucking messy
I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning round me just the same
I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning round me just the same

I'm holding on
Why is everything so heavy
Holding on
So much more than I can carry
I keep dragging around what's bringing me down
If I just let go, I'd be set free
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy

I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning round me just the same
I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning round me just the same
And I drive myself crazy
Thinking everything's about me

I'm holding on
Why is everything so heavy
Holding on
So much more than I can carry
I keep dragging around what's bringing me down
If I just let go, I'd be set free
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy

 

Faint (Meteora, 2003)

 

I am
Little bit of loneliness
A little bit of disregard
A handful of complaints
But I can't help the fact
That everyone can see these scars
I am
What I want you to want
What I want you to feel
But it's like
No matter what I do
I can't convince you
To just believe this is real
So I let go
Watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here
Cause you're all that I got

I can't feel
The way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal
This damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

I am
A little bit insecure
A little unconfident
Cause you don't understand
I do what I can
But sometimes I don't make sense
I am
What you never want to say
But I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do
I can't convince you
For once just to hear me out
So I let go
Watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here
Cause you're all that I got

I can't feel
The way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal
This damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

Now
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me
Like it or not right now (2x)

I can't feel
The way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal
This damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

I can't feel
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored.

 

What I've Done (Minutes To Midnight, 2007)

 

In this farewell
There's no blood
There's no alibi
'Cause I've drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand lies
So let mercy come
And wash away

What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done

Put to rest
What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands
Of uncertainty
So let mercy come
And wash away

What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done

For what I've done
I'll start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I'm forgiving what I've done

I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done

What I've done

Forgiving what I've done

 

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